[Meaning, Gavin DeGraw]

I had the most amazing date with my husband yesterday.  Admittedly, I have spent the preponderance of my lifetime thinking Valentine's Day is cheesy and stupid, just a corporate excuse to make people spend money.  Obviously people should love one another daily, not just on a day dedicated to buying stuff to prove something.  That said, my beloved has been SUPER busy finishing up the semester for school (he has a Bachelor's in PoliSci from Gonzaga but has found it to be quite useless in generating revenue, so he's getting a second degree, this time in IT, aka computer stuffs) and hasn't had much time for me.  Yesterday he dedicated an entire day to me, and it was amazing.

I'm too tired to say much more, so I'm just going to post links to the photo albums I just put up on Facebook.  You can see the pics without having an account, so feel free to browse through.  If you want to make a comment, though, you have to be my friend.  You can add me, but I don't accept from people I don't actually know.  If you are a FoodeFight reader just tell me and I'll make an exception for ya :)

A quick confession: I know that anyone can check my stats and know that I weigh 360+ pounds and that everyone knows that is very, very fat.  I still get really weird about posting pictures and will often take like 20 just to get one with the most flattering angle, always mainly of my head/face, trying to hide my chunky cheeks and chubby chin / neck.  It took effort to post these pics, because some show more of my body and I feel so fat.  But... it's what I look like, and even if I lose 200 pounds I will really regret that I missed out on a part of life by refusing to ever take pictures of me when I was bigger, because thus far it has meant that most of my 20's are missing from my life safe for my wedding and some head shots.  So... I sucked up my pride and let my bloated body be seen.  And I'm ok with that, because anyone who judges me negatively is accountable to God and I only care about His opinion of me, anyway, and He's concerned with my heart.  Truthfully, I'm ok with just being me.  It helps to have a husband who keeps telling me how incredibly beautiful I am, and I'm starting to see myself as both he and my Lord do.  I'm a work in progress.  And I like it.

Valentine's Date Day Part I - Green Lake

Valentine's Date Day Part II - Dinner

*No, it wasn't healthy per se.  The steaks were big and the potatoes had cheese, bacon, sour cream, and butter.  That said, we didn't eat big amounts and actually didn't eat lunch in anticipation of our large dinner, so I don't regret it.  My goal isn't to be a food Nazi- it's to glorify God in all I do, and making my beloved husband an amazing dinner brings joy to my husband and glorifies God.  It's a sweet treat, though rare.  I'm not making excuses- I have complete peace, but I'm just giving y'all the specs in case you see the pics and freak and think I have fallen off the wagon!  I haven't.  We normally eat much healthier meals!

V-Day Hangover 

Don't worry, we didn't even have any alcohol on V-Day because we aren't big drinkers.  It's just a play on words :)

Enjoy the pics!  I promise to post more this week, too!  Last week was just nuts, so you can hold me to my promise to write some real entries this week.

Hasta, kids.