# 30 - Oh, Taste and See...  

Posted by Tami Hagglund in ,

I know it's been a bit silent- for that I apologize!

I just have to let you all know that my workout last week- while grueling- was awesome! He had me sweating enough to drench my shirt, and I definitely felt it the next day! And the coolest part is that I (mostly) replicated the routine at home on Saturday, so that was good.

Easter went well- I was controlled and careful. I did eat one extra piece of ham, but beyond that I did a great job of eating small portions, slowly, enjoying the food and really just enjoying the family. We even grabbed dinner in Seattle (not something we planned for, but we didn't make the 6:30 church service, so it was 7 and we were SO HUNGRY! We attended the 8:30 service and didn't get home until nearly 11 so it was a good thing we grabbed dinner) and I had a turkey club, but I only ate 2/3 of it and gave the rest to the J-Man.

Now, all of that said, I am nervous about tomorrow's weigh-in. For one, I will start my period in the next few days, and I feel bloated. Also, I could not. Stop. Eating. Yesterday. I was craving EVERYTHING. Salty. Sweet. Savory. Crunchy. Creamy. UGH! I actually only ate around 2,800 calories when all was said and done, but I felt like crap for doing so. And my stomach FREAKED out. You don't want to know this, but I had the worst gas EVER. The only good thing is that my husband and I laughed A LOT last night :) But I had a migraine yesterday and still feel generally crappy today so... meh.

Lastly... I know I'll likely regret this, but I just can't make myself eat today. Jason had to all but force me to eat some cereal this morning, I ate a banana around 12:30, and some Trader Joe's peanut butter crackers around 1:30. I just can't make myself eat lunch. I have zero appetite and still horrific gas, which, believe you me, is no fun when you're at work.

And I'm seriously nervous about tomorrow's weigh-in. If it's over 350 I will want to cry. I don't care if it's 5 extra pounds of water weight. I know that I weighed 348 on Friday because I just felt lighter so I cheated and checked. That was a pound and a half down from last Wednesday's weigh-in.

Ugh. I know I need to quit stressing and just push on toward the goal, but... I just really don't want to weigh more! I know that it's not due to calories- 200 extra calories for two days won't slam me into fat gain. Still.

Any comforting words? I feel kind of needy.

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2 battle cries

Brittney  

Darlin', you have been fighting for 30 blog posts - that amazes me! I know this is a tough battle for you and its about time that you started feeling war-weary but keep at it. Your weigh in tomorrow will give you a number, but whatever that number is does not discount all that you have done over the past four weeks. Take a bit of inventory - how are you different now than when you first started (and I mean more than just weight)? You've become more focused, more disciplined. And God has drawn you closer to him, using your body and physical struggles to give you insight into yourself and your spiritual struggles. I am so hecka proud of you - you could have spent this last month in passive apathy, but you rose above the inertia and decided to work. Hard. I know that this crucible will only serve to refine you - take heart!! You are an amazing, incredible woman of God and you are going to win this battle!

March 25, 2008 at 10:38 PM
molly  

if you don't post a "before" pic soon, it's not gonna be very accurate! in fact, it's probably too late - eating better and exercising has already improved your skin tone and clarity, and i bet you have a huge smile from all the endorphins....

March 26, 2008 at 4:25 PM

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