I love spring.

To be fair, fall is my favorite season, but I love spring as well. I think it's the way the air just feels clean and fresh. It's not crisp like October, but I just love the way things start turning green and little flowers appear on trees you wish you knew the name of.

The irony is that the weather here was really beautiful last week. I was grouchy and whiny last week. Today, the skies are gloomy and overcast... and I find myself in the best mood I can remember. So random.

I love this song, btw: Wonderful World, by James Morrison

So, I used to have this habit on a previous blog of not writing all week and then just suddenly throwing together a long chain of updates in a deal that ended up being called list Thursday. I'm not necessarily going to always do that on here, but in honor of the ghost of List Thursday, I'm going to write 10 things I would LOVE about being fit. Actually, with props going to Darla here, allow me to altar my verbage: here are 7 things I WILL love about being fit!

#7 - The ability to run and hike.

Two things I really wish I could do are go running and to go for hikes. For one, I live in an amazing city (ok, I'll live officially IN Seattle in 3 months if all goes according to plan) for things like going for a run, and there are beautiful hiking trails all around. It's the glory of the Pacific Northwest! In fact, I'm tacking another one on here- I can't wait to be able to ride a bike, too. Right now, none of these things are really viable options. My body can barely handle walking for more than about 10 minutes before my lower back spasms like no tomorrow, and I simply can't sit on a bike. But someday... it shall be glorious.

#6 - Fitting into seats.

Just about any seat with sides is one I can't sit in. This includes some of my favorite things, like not wanting to die in pain while watching games at Safeco and Qwest field (the home of the Mariners and Seahawks, respectively). I avoid airplane travel at all costs. I had to go sit in the handicap section when Jas and I went to see a concert. Heck, even at church I spill over onto the seats next to me a little bit. I am terrified that I'll have to ride the bus and once again be the proverbial fat chick everyone despises- especially in my proverbially fit city. It will be awesome to simply fit into the seats and focus on the event and not how humiliated I feel. This also includes rides at amusement parks.

#5 - Being in Pictures

I hate being in pictures. I never think I look good. I know that's common, but it's not about retaking the photo to not have my eyes closed- it's about not looking like such a heifer! You'll notice that the picture has been "coming soon" for nearly two months. I just haven't been able to bring myself to further document just how utterly grotesque I have allowed my body to become. One of the most painful things I had to reconcile was when a photographer friend chose to not use my wedding pics in his albums that display his work. It wasn't so painful that he didn't choose to use the pictures as it was to realize that I completely understood why he might not want to. The sad truth is that maybe he just didn't feel it displayed his best work, but I will always feel ashamed that I looked so... fat.

So... I can't wait to not cringe when I see myself in a picture.