Today is a vastly different day from Sunday.

That sentence has the word "day", be it alone or in a compound word, three times. Hmmm.

Anyway, my place of employment is having a sales training this week so a bunch of our dealers from around the country are here. We're providing food all week, and today was a taco bar from Qdoba (yummuh!). The good news is I ate the amount I'd normally eat when saving room for seconds... only I didn't go back for seconds. In addition, I really wanted a whole cookie but I cut it in half. And it was DELICIOUS! I did have a half of a brownie later, though I wanted to eat the whole thing. Instead I chose to wrap up half to save for my hubby for when he picks me up, so that was actually another victory for me :)

Tomorrow is pizza, so if you think of it, feel free to shoot me an encouraging comment/e-mail/Facebook quote to remind me of why I have to choose to be self-controlled.

This reminds me... one area I generally tend to suck at is remembering to keep this battle- and it is a battle, literally a flat-out war- focused on victory for Jesus and not just Tami. My deepest desire is that through this journey I would surrender my eating habits to Jesus Christ, to allow Him to fulfill my deepest needs as opposed to numbing my hurts with the narcotic that is food. I forget to be prayerful when tempted as opposed to relying on mere human wisdom. If telling myself how bad that cookie is for me, or how horrid it will look on my hips, worked to keep me from eating it then I wouldn't weigh 351.2 (so obnoxious- when, oh WHEN, will I break under 350 permanently? Mreh.) pounds. Thus, my mere health is not enough- it has to be about Jesus or I will never stop failing.

One last thing- a friend reminded me that one instance of overeating doesn't make me a perpetual failure. It's a bad choice, and a mistake to be sure, but I won't forever sport a big, fat F on my forehead. What a great encourager! She also suggested that I do what she does- no cookies in the abode, pretty much ever, but when she just really, REALLY craves one she goes out and buys one and eats the whole thing.

I really think this is the best idea for me- I simply cannot never have another chocolate chip cookie in my life because I'm pretty sure I'll die. But one every four to eight weeks (about how often I just HAVE to have something of that sort) will be ok. This is what I do with McDonald's fries- I can't just eat them whenever the desire for them crosses my mind. But if I really crave them, and they've perpetually bogarted my thoughts for a week or so, then I can get a small serving of them off the dollar menu- but nothing else, and the cheap cost is no excuse to get more stuff. I will now shamefully admit that for some sick reason I absolutely LOVE the el cheapo double cheeseburgers from McD's- a place I don't really even like, generally speaking. I just can't eat only one- I prefer three at a time because I'm a pork chop that way. So, I just have decided that for me, McD's double cheese are dead. They died and are gone. But fries 4-5 times a year is acceptable, if I plan for it and take it into account for my daily caloric intake. So, I'll do the same with chocolate chip cookies.

:) No more babbling! Feel free, as always, to share thoughts!